God will sometimes put a vision in us that excites us until it’s time to move on it. Then battles come and getting up and moving on things becomes a lot harder than caving in to the weight of the fight. Giving up should never be an option because the enemy will not let up so you’ve gotta take one step, then another and another and trust God to bring you through it.
I’ve gotta say, I’m so grateful God is so patient, forgiving, merciful and full of grace. I lean on Him when I’m dealing with insecurities, pressure, doubt or frustrations. Being vulnerable is not my strongest trait, but more and more the Lord has been tugging at my heart to be a worker in His fields. ‘God, why did you call me? Why are you asking me to do this? Couldn’t you pick someone else?’
The truth is He could have picked someone else. He could have asked someone else. Yes, He could have commissioned someone else BUT, He chose me! That’s encouraging and empowering yet it comes with a great responsibility and I’m okay with that because I’m not doing it on my own. Philippians 2:13 for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.
Writing is something God put in my heart years ago and I did try for a short time even though I love writing. Being my biggest critic, I beat down on my writings to a point I just stopped. The need to share was still in me and I started a journal but that vision to step out and write a blog never left me. I kept what I wrote on a memory stick and told myself it was enough. I attended a conference in Jacksonville and it was there that I decided it was time to be obedient and trust God in this.
You see, we never know who our lives or stories will touch. It maybe one person or hundreds of people. The truth is we each have a story someone needs to hear. We have gifts and fruits that need to be put to good use for the praise and glory of God. I’m continuing this journey with a fresh vision and determination to stay the course and run my race.
15 So when they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon, son of John, do you love Me more than these [others do—with total commitment and devotion]?” He said to Him, “Yes, Lord; You know that I love You [with a deep, personal affection, as for a close friend].” Jesus said to him, “Feed My lambs.” 16 Again He said to him a second time, “Simon, son of John, do you love Me [with total commitment and devotion]?” He said to Him, “Yes, Lord; You know that I love You [with a deep, personal affection, as for a close friend].” Jesus said to him, “Shepherd My sheep.” 17 He said to him the third time, “Simon, son of John, do you love Me [with a deep, personal affection for Me, as for a close friend]?” Peter was grieved that He asked him the third time, “Do you [really] love Me [with a deep, personal affection, as for a close friend]?” And he said to Him, “Lord, You know everything; You know that I love You [with a deep, personal affection, as for a close friend].” Jesus said to him, “Feed My sheep.